Tried to sleep but...

It's currently 1.14am. Life is great. I am really blessed to have a great wife and mom. They make the difference as they understand what I feel. There are many unpleasant memories that suddenly popped up as I tried to sleep. Some I just cannot write here. Imagine having everything great but there is this obstacle that stands by you everyday suppressing you while finding your faults even if you don't really want to get involved. The thing is that, the obstacle comes to you.

I am the free spirited person as well as my wife and usually don't disturb others whenever we can. The problem lies herein,due to the niceness I am, there is this thinking that I can be a pushover and disrespected.

If things are not done in the way although I disagree, there will be cries and floor spinnings and threats. Luckily, my positivity and sanity is still here. It does get to my nerves often but whenever that happens, I have to make sure it doesn't manifest or affect my mind. Luckily, my wife and mom are reasonable and I can always talk to them. Usually, I don't write anything negative but sometimes these thoughts get too overwhelming that I need to shed off some of the weight to maintain my sanity.