I feel ur pain.. I joined about a month after u and have been struggling with many of the same issues.. i have already started taking a step back from steemit lately and havent decided if i will ever give it my all again. however i am gonna keep my steem just in case it does take off one day 😉
Take care my friend.

P.S. Maybe u should delegate ur steem uf ur arent going to sell it, atleast make a return on ur money while it sits.. id be happy to lease it from u if u dont wanna lease it to bidbots. Just an idea.