'so I have to stop just because of money?'
'the award will come to those who will be strong enough to stay here even now.'

Those are the two most important sentences I picked out of what you wrote.
I can imagine that it is disappointing that your plans can not come through (yet).
And I don't have a crystal ball in which I can see the future.
But having put in all that effort for 2 years, and quit now that all lot of things that were not working smoothly here, seem to getting better, would be a waste also. And not to speak about the potential of developments still to come (SMT's etc).
Steemit is not dead. It is ONLY dead, if all people here believe that.
But the vast majority of people being still active things different.

Just like you I also believe that :'the award will come to those who will be strong enough to stay here, even now.'