Great post, and I recognize the internal conflict when doing two sorts of drugs too from the past. My party years are long gone, but I also experienced some very good things while on certain drugs and used wisely.. and other occasions some very bad things due to circumstances/ bad company or other reasons. To me some drugs aren't that bad as people think when you use it wisely, and can give you great insights.. others however, can easily get a grip on people using them and destroy lives in a heartbeat. Saw that happening to people I knew too..