I'm a big risk taker but I always say, and not being sarcastic, don't copy me. Some of my risks have payed out big (not just financially, this includes friendships, jobs, etc.) and some have lost big as well. I'm comfortable in loss, drama, jungle-mechanics, the streets, - AND- comfortable without. I've felt all that could be felt on extreme sides of the neurological spectrum. I've had a near death experience. Basically, I'm resolved already. Which is kind of SAD if you really think about it. This has helped me in sooooooo many ways in life, but also not so — because my desensitization often leaves me in a colder, less compassionate-seeming, disposition and well, sometimes it feels like life is has no magic anymore. Knowledge grants great control, power, and leads to wise choices — yet, comes with a world of responsibility, sadness, disappointments, throws of compassion for the misled, few opportunities for outrage, no victim card. There's pressure, there is weight, there is accountability to those who depend on your decisions, there is no room for sparkles, rainbows, fate, destiny, mystery... I think too this is what sucks most agnostics and atheists into pessimism, apathy, and depression. Its so much simpler to accept the meaning of life from any number of sources and just continue on living it in a preformat. Every question is answered. No thinking required. Nothing further to be curious about. But what a risk to think outside the box, and even more so to learn what's outside the box and see demonstration of it, it is both wonder and wonderouslessness... inexplainable dichotomy.