RE: 🖤 When it rains...it pours. Lots of bad news to share...🖤
Great, I can post again, so let's get to it.
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Fucking assholes on internet, they can die for all I care, they hurt others for their own benefit and don't care shit about it. You're mad, and you're right to be mad, you're in a seriously bad medical condition, but if it was you can bet I would be punching walls and swearing all sorts of things, because it's UNFAIR, this world is so damn unfair and we're so damn unable to do anything at all...
I can't really express my feelings correctly on a post like this, but at least in my country in some extreme cases like yours some medical charity can occur. Perhaps some sort of non-profit medical community will be willing to help you? I know of software development, and I can scour the internet if you want, but I don't know A THING of medicine; but if you haven't tried this approach yet and you would like at least a pair of extra eyes, you only need to ask.
Perhaps it's time to admit that your strength alone won't take you much far and that it's time to ask for support of a full fledged organization.
I was so angry and yet so sad when reading the lines about how your dreams got crushed. It's true that it was unlikely you would make a full recovery, but hope is what keep us going, and now that this hope has been crushed I can't even begin to imagine how sad, frustrated, and desperate you are... that feeling of powerlesness as we see our dreams get destroyed is just the worst, the fucking worst. This isn't embarrasing, so don't worry, don't worry about people's opinion being changed... whoever thinks less of you for posting this will get flagged to death by me, so don't worry and let your feelings flow, it's a lot better than having them kept inside and exploding.
You can post again! I thought that might be weeks away! I am very pissed off because the scammer made me miss the opportunity for buying the real thing...and now that I went ahead with getting everything else the window is closed. And...it's not like I payed some lowball bargain price...it was right on par with the actual retail cost. Even with a refund on the device...and topping up the lost difference with shipping rates...I am still short a few hundred hundred dollars. It has become a matter of principle...even if they money were available...I just don't agree with sellers who pump up the price way beyond realistic resale value...and all the ones selling on ebay right now basically overinflate the shipping costs anyway. I would never pay upwards of $150 on top of the product. And besides...it's not like I am ready to jump right back into that scenario...and of being caught blindsided again. I don't know of any foundations that could help...there are lots for specific ones for diseases like cancer and amazing ones for kids and old people...but I have always been stuck in between all the categories. I don't fit into any if the criteria. I appreciate any suggestions of course...but don't have a lot of faith in finding a foundation to help. I have always just been in the wilds...on the outskirts and on my own. So...I did get everything out here...didn't hold any emotion in...but still not feeling okay. Far from it...I don't feel better. But your comment and your support means so very much to me...it really does. Thank you for being here... <3