Am I too late to comment? Its already 6 days ago. I hope you're feeling better now. Its normal to lost it, when you make others laugh but you are crying inside. When you lost the motivation I am always experiencing it but when I list the good things happened in my life compared to bad, the
blessings outnumbered the bad things, In this way I will be able to pick myself again. Everything is temporary, this too shall pass;