Thanks for sharing both sides of your temperament! It takes courage to open up like that and I'm so happy you were able to turn things around and can now enjoy a better relationship with your stepdad.
Love too that you balance out that with your desire to help people when ever you can.
Realizations can be powerful things!
Wasn't sure what entheogen meant so I looked it up

An entheogen is a class of psychoactive substances that induce any type of spiritual experience aimed at development.

They could definitely get you on the right path when we take the realizations from using these substances and grow/change with them or incorporate.