yes sir I totally relate. when I quit I didn't even want to
but was forced into it because my wife was quitting so
I knew it would be torture for her unless I quit also.

after 20 years I can still borrow a smoke and enjoy it, drives
my wife crazy!

Looking at just a few of the things you've been through would
drive ANYONE to smoke even after they quit! but since you've already
quit successfully and proven that you can do it then you got this.
Plus you understand the power of the spoken word so you can reprogram yourself.