Word brother, I feel you.

This one has been a battle for me, given decades of conditioning and trying to prove myself - even though it never worked.

flowed a helluva lot more magically than ever and were shockingly levels-beyond what I’ve ever outputted trying to push results from force.

It was the same for me tho. I tried to force my music production on another level. Sitting in my Studio for 8 hours a day trying to make something happen that wasn't meant to happen. At least not like that. Good things only happens when youre not trying to force it.