RE: The boost I needed just arrived in my inbox
From our short time knowing each other, you'll be amazing at this.
As a leader, I am best at leading very small groups of focused, competent people. I usually lead the Guest of Honor team for ICon, our biggest annual science fiction convention. It's a team of 3-4 people, and it works great.
When I was a tech editor, I led a team of two. Me, and my vice editor, plus a few freelancers. My vice editor was so committed, he once wrote a piece between two back surgeries. He had one surgery, that failed, and was in the hospital waiting for the next day. And he wrote a piece. This was 100 percent his idea, and I was not super happy about his priorities. But, yeah, that's the kind of person I can manage.
If a team is bigger than 4, my ADHD plays havoc. If a team isn't committed and competent, my people pleasing will get in the way of getting the best out of everyone.