great questions and reflections. my heart warmed when you mentioned that you've been given the "task" to "let nature love you"- in younger years, i've been hip to "join" groups, and as i get older i still see that going to a community gathering i feel drawn to usually has the added benefit not of joining that group (which i'm not much looking for), but to spur on relationships with a few people that i may meet that i feel attracted to. that's pretty much my MO. with taos, i remember moving there in winter and needing to work straightaway. i didn't make too many close connections (with humans) until later in my time there, but the natural world called to me straightaway and i focused on that because it is such a special area. i can say that the natural area was what was so special to me about living in taos. i made a few close friends by the end, but the mountain continues to speak to me to this day. btw, i don't think you're alone in being a hermit attracted to taos- there are a lot of hermits there :D!!! <3 <3