I lost a lot of friend because my condition I was alienated by my condition @gungho plus I also believe that not much people too are with the same color of feathers. It is just good that I gained a lot of friends online but of course it is different to have somebody that you can be with face to face.
I also can't see myself live in another country even if I am able to because you simply can't really blend with the native people to a foreign country.