I cannot say that I understand how you feel...because that would be lying. But I do understand how frustrated you are and how "played" you feel.
Time will heal everything. I am so happy that you didnt take any drastic measure that you would either regret in the future or never let you get peace.
Honestly, its difficult not to take drastic measures but, I realized that if I did proceed on doing anything crazy, I might end up in a worst place out there.