I'd chosen writing it out rather than speaking out 😁 because sometimes what bothering me is something in my mind. Glad that you chosen the right path to release the burden from your heart and mind @nurseanne84.
I don't think any religions and traditions made us to be a masochist😊 though I don't deny it when people we live with shape the way we think about life. If you choose not to be a fatalist like other did for their limited understanding and views about the religion, than you are free to speak out your mind😉
That is the problem @cicisaja. When you get to move out and live alone, all your support group goes out of the window too. I think that I did a great move by not speaking to anyone here(though that might be free and convenient) because, if that person gaslights, then, it would just complicate things up.