Yes, so difficult to get out from beneath our thinking and really do those things we wish or think about doing. I think the social programming whether that comes from society or our families of origin continue on in our own heads long after the lessons were given. I, for one, have fought with great difficulty, the THEY in my head.
It's funny how much of our life is spent being programmed and how much we spend removing the programming.
Seems to be a lifetime of unraveling.