I can understand your thinking partly, because I also had the same time as your. This is 2 months ago when I stuck in finance, stuck in job and many things. Sometimes I think about suicide. My mind and my body is decrease so much. I cannot relize myself in the mirror, so terrible.

Finally, I have found my way: These are books. I read " Change your mind and your life will follow" by Karen Casey in Vietnamese. I feel better and better.

You should try