i can feel the shadow echo of your memory when i read what you shared, i believe i know what that feels like to have someone that was a big part of our life, our existence missing when we want so much to share something with them, but i think it's unique for everyone....

i know it's years ago....but something triggered it (spiritually speaking), something brought or led you out to write about it, explore it or let it come to you, there could be meaning, reason, and timing for this to come now.....it could very well be a point of transformation, even a clearer realization that you thought you already had...but i do think more is coming and usually, it influences the future

i acknowledge that feeling....peace be with you