YOU are NOT alone in feeling this way. I have these exact struggles my friend. I DO nt have an answer as to how to stop feeling this. I DO think it is like waves, they roll in silently and break violently. The plus side, after the break,,there is that moment of calm and clarity. I DO KNOW THIS...going deeper into THYSELF is often time a hard place to crawl back out of. I think a ton of people here would agree, we love you man and do not wish to see you go. I hope your wave breaks, and you find that clarity again. Never quit, never give up, even if it seems the easier thing to do.
~RESPECT~