For a depressing post this certainly isn't so depressing! You're processing through a bit of a difficult time, and it sounds like you are doing the right things in order to persevere. I think being a teacher, and being an academic can be extremely taxing considering part of the job is to critique and be critiqued.
Good luck! Sending good vibes from Canada!
The good vibes have been received well! Thanks! Yup, I wish at times I could just stick to teaching, but the requirements of my profession has changed and after a while, I am required to do more than just teach, thus the project... I hope things are not like that over at canada?