When I was younger, I wanted things to be tidy too, like you, I could not read or relax so much if things around me were cluttered. As I've gotten older though, there are so many things I want to do instead of cleaning up and somehow I've changed, because I can read or write or anything else right in the middle of chaos .. ha ha.... I can focus on what I am doing and block all the other things out. I'm not sure it's a change for the better. :)