I am so sorry for your loss, Jerry. She was too young to pass on to heaven. Would asking that question answer anything? Or would it just leave more unanswered questions? If it was suicide, there are never sufficient answers. I have been down that road. My brother committed suicide 13 years ago, leaving behind three young children. We have moved on, but the questions remain. This is doubly hard for you because it happened on your birthday. Time lessens the hurt but it never completely heals. There is always a scar.