Phew. I"m very sorry to hear this and I'm so very happy that you did not. Know why? because then i would not be able to see or hear your beautiful energy. and yes you matter to all of us here!
although i did try to commit baby suicide at age 5 by diving into a pool, i was totally O-U-T. dove right in. i kinda laugh but it was true. this world was not for me, but i here i am back for however many years and pushing through.
yes talking is very important, its a huge issue in the native american culture and it breaks my heart. mostly amongst the men. much love and blessings to you too Kat. hugs