A beautiful journey into the maturity of feelings and emotions.

It is true. Most of us grow thick skins to repel what we don't like, and that comes at a price. We can't feel what we want to feel either. To be true to your core, you must be able to feel your own self, as well as others. In order to influence others and form relationships with them, you must discover yourself first.

We humans aren't designed to be robots.

I'd rather feel the shit and darkness than nothing at all.

That is precisely what happened to me as well. I'm pretty sensitive and I tried being a robot. But unfortunately, it was stifling. I could not be a robot. So I turned towards the other path. It was difficult at first, but then I realised that it was a journey towards greater mastery of the self. And I always like a challenge. At that point, I started out in my journey and my ex broke up with me the same day that my childhood friend died. A ton of turbulence just to start all of it off. Perhaps fate wanted to assist me with this challenge and make it even more difficult.

I used to have panic attacks and other mood swings. After about two years of constant effort, I was succesful. It wasn't easy, but now, god damn it, life is surely much calmer and beautiful.