man I feel you. I can relate so much with what you're saying. About 1.5 years ago, I experienced a breakup - so painful, so much misery.. and at the same time, it brought me so much goodness. It changed my life for the best. It was the perfect opportunity to get to know those feelings. To allow myself to be sad, to have pain, and to learn from it.

Haruki Murakami said: “Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. Say you're running and you think, 'Man, this hurts, I can't take it anymore. The 'hurt' part is an unavoidable reality, but whether or not you can stand anymore is up to the runner himself.”

what it shows me: Shit happens in life... :) the way we deal with it, is in our power.

I'm so glad for your experiences and growth. I can say the same... sometimes a low mood cloud passes through my life.. but it's just so much calmer and nicer than a few years ago...

Great to have you on this journey man :)