So, every once in a while I stumble across some video that sort of says something I know but cannot say. This is one of those.

I can trot out some of my old paperwork from my school days, I can to take a quick IQ test online and post the results for you, but I don't really feel the need to prove anything about my intellect. A lifetime of being tested and compared to my fellow humans has left me with this knowledge: I am smarter than most of you. Now, you can write me off as "arrogant" and stop reading or you can hear me out. 95th percentile or higher on all subjects, that is what my test results were year after year. Am I arrogant for reading the scores and understanding what they meant? And if you think I am bragging you did not watch the video.

There are times I truly envy the people who are just nearly "retarded." They are obviously having more fun than I am. When it is really hard is when someone who is obviously much lower down that scale will chastise me for my "negative attitude." Understand I do NOT think my intellect makes me a better HUMAN. How we use what we have is what counts, we all got different gifts and challenges. My intellect is both, I assure you.

I have deeply researched the tin universe. There are very few bunny holes that I have not explored. The lies that have held humanity in financial and intellectual poverty for millennia are so vast it is hard to describe. People who say "Our government would never hurt their own citizens" are dangerously stupid, but they cling to their beliefs with perfect faith. There is no showing them all the horrible things the government has admitted they did to citizens that can shake their confidence that the government is like God, always good even when they do not understand. People with an intellect far below mine will write me off as crazy when I speak the truth, and complain that I am a "downer" because I cannot stomach the mindless entertainment created to numb and dumb the masses. I cannot join in the conversation about what was on TV or what is at the theater, I do not partake of those brain poisons...

I know what I know. There are not many people who have a better understanding of what is really going on in this world, from a political / religious perspective. Very few people WANT to know what I know. I did not really WANT to know, I just have an insatiable curiosity. Even when I know I am not going to like what I see, I look. I would rather stare into the eyes of Satan than wonder what color they are for the rest of my life or take someone else's word for it.

I have very few people I can fully be myself around. I always have to remember "Oh yeah, this person thinks humans are warming the planet." "I can't talk about Zionism with this person, they will call me an anti-Semite." "Oh, that is a vegan. RUN!!!" I want people to know the truth, about EVERYTHING, and I have a hard time not getting into fights when I did not even mean to be disagreeing, I was just saying what I knew. And when I tell you what I know, and you tell me what you believe and expect me to put your beliefs on par with the knowledge I went through hell to acquire...

So where is the positive in this? Well, there are a lot of fans of Anthony Bourdain in mourning right now, thinking he ended his life in a depressed funk. It is cold comfort, but I am not mourning him, not like that. I am celebrating his effort, thanking him for standing up when he knew it may cost him dearly. Knowledge may be depressing, but it is empowering. I know that the noose is tightening around the neck of the people who DESERVE to hang, the people who have made an INDUSTRY of trading in children.

So here you go. I am telling you Bourdain (and probably Spade) were whacked. Here is his twitter feed, go look at May 25. Or don't - tell yourself that I am lying about my intelligence and your beliefs are more important than any facts my "negative" self might find... but here is the twitter feed:
https://twitter.com/Bourdain?ref_src=twsrc%5Egoogle%7Ctwcamp%5Eserp%7Ctwgr%5Eauthor

Now, he did not post EVERY day, but pretty close to it. You will notice it cuts off at June 3, he did not die until June 8. That long a gap is unusual. I have no way of knowing if this is a legit screen capture or not, but it is consistent with what he was saying on the 25th of May.

So there it is. I know in the REALLY big picture, "Team Good" is scaring the evil bastards. Maybe I know too much about what is going on in this world to be a bubbly, happy person but I am OK with that. I am an honest person who fights like hell for a better world for ALL OF US. I've stood toe to toe with jackbooted thugs, I have made warmongering politicians fall silent in shame, I have had "dirty" power offered to me and turned it down without hesitation. Whether anyone understands that or believes it is of little consequence, when I look in the mirror I see a woman who may never earn a halo, but she does NOT BOW TO EVIL and that is POSITIVELY who I want to see in there... even if it means I seem a little crabby to the people who do not, will not, cannot understand what I understand.

My trusty steed and I , attired for battle and ready to ride to the rescue of TRUTH wherever it is under siege.

Hey! That is a lot less "WTF"ish than my selfies usually are!

Thank you to my ROCK and intellectual match, @longsilver for challenging me to do this. Today I want to challenge a few people that I suspect may know EXACTLY what I mean... @sircork, @battleax and @sgt-dan. Proceeds from this post will be donated to YAH, the leaders in blockchain "TeamGood"ness.

THE CHALLENGE:
Write a post about something you have to be positive about today - this could be anything from being thankful for your current situation, someone being nice to you, being thankful for your friends and family, or even being thankful for the opportunity you have been given here on Steemit - just keep it positive :)
Do this for 7 days in a row if you get nominated
Mention three people who should do this on each day.
Tag it with #sevendaypositivity (can try 7daypositivitychallenge but Steemit doesn't like numbers) and include these rules at the bottom of your post
Include a picture of something positive (related to your story if possible).

NAMASTE