Those are hard roads to travel. I've been down them myself. Like you, I'm grateful to have found something that I do enjoy and that gives me hope for a brighter future.

I commend you for doing so well for a person who is "not really talented". So you must have done something else. Perhaps it was your persistence and determination. Those things really are much more indicative of success than talent or skill. Lots of brilliant failures out there. Blessings.