waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoEveryday Self BeliefHowever damaged my family, I'm deeply a part of it. It might be crazy after all these years. After all, after all…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoBeing powerful is all in your head (and then hands)Yesterday morning, that my power is all in my head, popped into my head. People who abuse power to disempower others…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoJealousy held me backMy brother was born two years after me. My mother thinks that it was because of the drugs at childbirth; for the…waking (25)in #story • 6 years agoDon't Be This1). The Theft That person with multiple talents told herself she was doing a favour by withdrawing. Kept her music…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoCappuccinos and True Happiness: The Economics of Love(1) Entering adulthood with a syrofoam cappuccino It was 1996 and Sex and the City and Friends was a thing.…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoHow to hack self-doubtI was initiated into the Prophet some 12 years ago by an elite soldier stoner boyfriend with a fascinating mind, not…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoLife realisations- letting go, finding peace, the forgivable fallibility of parents and feeling like you deserveThere is a funny thing about dreams. You wake, you have them, you remember for a minute and then it's gone. But…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoPruning the past without destructionOver the weekend I cut down vines from my back yard. I've been having them crawl up the fence, over the yard and…waking (25)in #ivf • 6 years agoMarvellous IVF updateI'll cut the verbosity for this one. In January I did a second round of IVF. I was 43 and a bit back then. I…waking (25)in #ivf • 6 years agoStaying sane during IVF..part threeThe Buddhist tradition is replete with thought experiments designed to kick us momentarily out of our dualistic monkey…waking (25)in #confidence • 6 years agoStaying sane during IVF (and life) Part 2So here's the thoughts that occur to me. First, I think too much. I know this about myself. Probably sounds like a…waking (25)in #work • 6 years agoBad boss relationship recoveryMy manager in my previous position. I listened closely. In our interactions, it was like a whisper in my ear: I want…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoStaying sane during IVF Part 1.After the mysterious kiss (see previous post Forty fucking four) there cometh the appointment with the fertility…waking (25)in #ivf • 6 years agoForty fucking fourI'm on the bus going to doctor. It's my birthday. 9pm appointment. Why ? At my Sunday appointment, my dental…waking (25)in #israel • 6 years agoIsraelThey turn around and want to kill us. And we say, hell no. We say- have you got any idea of the suffering that we…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoDaring to imagine being happy just as things areBeginning this blog, I began to realise that I'm much stronger than I realise. The seedlings were there. They grew…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoWho would I be if I did not _____?For years and years I have taught myself to fit in by pleasing others. Seeking their good opinion of me. Seeking…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoOn power and happinessAbout 4 years ago I had a profound experience . I was on a detox month in Thailand. At the same time I was fasting…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoMeeting realityA month ago I took a break to the desert and met there a couple of friends in their early thirties who were both…waking (25)in #life • 6 years agoHuman madnessSince I got back, I've been feeling increasingly miserable. At first, it was a joy because having been stuck in a…